i feel getting harder to communicate with them nowadays

Esp."HER"

i simply don't understand
Why everything is mine WRONG yet u're everything is RIGHT!

i know in the family i'm the one who spend $ the most .i also know
money is hard to earn . i wanted to find a job yet u don't allow me due to
my health. " This cannot , There cannot "
What u want me to do?

When i told u i want to pierce my ear ,wan to wear contact len
u give me -.- reason {i didn't want to mention it }

I ain't not a mother baby anymore !
i had grown up ,18th year old alr !

I'm envy friends around which can go work ,
{ as i know work is tough but at least u earning ur own $ } and do others.

WHY CAN'T I ???? );
is it u don't TRUST me ANYMORE?